MY LIFE IS A SOAP OPERA,

I'm just in a euphoric state of mind that I can't explain...

It sounds like the lyric to a song but it's not!

Today I went for a very stereotypical bike ride in the city, what can I say, we Europeans...

I just had to think about stuff
I had important stuff to do
And I just blew it all
To go for a random bike ride alone
Like an Italian movie from the 20s

It was beautiful
I felt light for once
I was flying


I was thinking about how I spent a night with the guy of my DREAMS after getting drunk at a party,
and now he won't call me... it's ok...
that one night stand was better than nothing. It was better than not ever getting to have him

FOR ONE NIGHT

HE WAS MINE

And he is probably never going to be mine again

I'm gonna shower now, I smell like cigarettes

I wish for all of you to one day feel how I felt that night...

What I Took From London and NY Fashion Weeks :)

1. Skinny Is Still IN ;)

2. New trends to try out when I go to Milan:

Metallics

Sporty

Tropical prints

Color block dressing

Peplum

Wet hair

Red lips

Crazy lips

Bold eyebrows

Dramatic eyes

Streaks of color

Wild nails

3. Well some thinspo, of course!

Felder Felder

 Damn!

PPQ 

A fat girl could NEVER wear this...

ADAM

This is my new desktop background ^.^

Weird Nightly Thoughts and Cool Stuff For You All

Cool thing # 1:

What I wrote in my diary last night

Today was not necessarily a sad day, I'd say it was more of an... interesting day.
It's interesting how I cannot help feeling fat, regardless of what I do or of what I am told.
Right now I see the fat, and what's worse is that I feel the fat, I feel it on me, in all its disgustingness, surrounding my body like a lazy but poisonous animal. I need to get rid of it!
Because there's so much fat surrounding me, I find it harder to run or to do dance stretches, which are vital to my career.
It is really
frustrating.
I want it GONE.
I am not comfortable in my own skin, I don't want to look like this, I don't feel at ease in this body...
I am not who I
want to be,
in any way.
It's gotten so bad that I hardly ever go out anymore if I don't have to.
I'm constantly observed and scrutinized by everyone, and I feel like I should just constantly stay locked up in the house so that I don't put anyone through the torture of having to look at me.
...
... ...
... ... ...
Today's fast went well...

Cool thing # 2:

This article

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2011/09/13/legal-high-ivory-wave-sho_n_959668.html
What do you think?
Should it be made illegal?
They say it works like Ritalin, I wonder if it makes you skinnier too?
(Disclaimer: I am NOT curious enough about this to try it out. No thanks, I already have enough "issues")

Cool thing # 3:

Sum thinspo!!!

Cool thing # 4:

Kool BLOG list!

Crazy is better when we're crazy together.

My Ways To Skinny

Between Hurricane & Harbor

gonna be skinny, coming?