Monday, November 29, 2010

I'm kinda...happy?

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So..what is this new crazy, jolly feeling I've been sensing?
Could it actually be...happiness??
Wow, I'm so ridiculous. For some reason, I feel super happy when I don't eat.
Today I was super pumped! I only had:
- water (0 cals)
- protein water mix (30 cals)
- green tea (0 cals)

This was only until 6 PM, when I actually was feeling legitimately HUNGRY AS HECK.
So add on to that:
- rice (95 cals)
- half a slice of pepperjack cheese (40 cals)
- pretzels (60 cals)

.........yeah, I know I f**ked it up.
But oh well. It's a start.

Plus, I exercised SO much more than usual today!
In the morning when I woke up, went for a half hour walk in heeled boots, 1 hour dance class (we must have done a bajillion sit ups :P), and i'm about to do my yoga routine again now :D

How are you feeling??

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Who likes to start over...:)

I am
I am so
I am so fat

I know it, even people around me know it. I've gained weight.
So much weight.............this evil fat is swallowing me.

MIANA Put that knife down. Put it down! And I do.

I'm starting over.
I died my hair black (my natural hair color) as it was bleached blonde before. ~FRESH START!~
And my parents are mad at me for it...I really don't give a shizz, I think they just liked my unnatural blonde hair so that they could have an "excuse" to make fun of my stupidity. Hah.

Oh gosh, it is so cold here. I wish I could go visit my fellow Ana bloggers in Australia XD

How are you starting over? Or is what you're doing working for you? Do tell!


Monday, November 15, 2010

Reverse Thinspo Week!!!

SO I decided to declare my own Ana festivity: this week is "REVERSE THINSPO WEEK"! Where we post picture of horribly ugly and tremendously obese individuals to shock us back to our journey to beauty. Haha
Anyone joining me?? :D
Send me your links!
Here you go........
P.S.: Just so you don't think I'm a horrible person, I really am not THAT big a fan of being this mean. I just like admitting the truth. And the truth is, these people are unattractive and they make me want to be skinny even more. I know I'm Ana. I know I'm Mia. I love being it though, it truly makes me incredibly happy.
Enough cheesy moment! Back to reality :D Have a great R.T.W. !!

Friday, November 12, 2010

"Don't Be an Almos..."

I saw this quote in a certain building yesterday. Notice the "t" in "almost" is missing, if you haven't yet.
I freaking love it.
It's funny how I can find "normal people" quotes and apply them to my own problems... ;P

So, part of my plan to get back on track today is to start the full Lemon Cleanse again, but I'm so serious about it now.
- I've been listening only to strong powerful music :)
- This quote keeps repeating itself over and over again in my head every time I think about food
- I wanna be beautiful for my bf again
- I am doing this for a spiritual purpose, or at least pretending to. Yeah, I don't really know what that means either. LOL

...point is, THIS TIME IT'S FOR REAL!
*** Also, there's a huge charity event going on in my city, and I promised myself I would donate $1 for every kilogram lost of weight that I gained back recently, $2 for each kilogram of extra weight!! :D obviously as you can tell this charity, as everything else, means a lot to me.

Today I'm also gonna go buy some laxies again :)
And haha I bought myself a cool new colorful water bottle to keep myself ultra-hydrated all the time! Yay.

What do my lovelies think?? (that's you... ;] )


P.S.: Isla Lynn is awesome, just thought I'd put it out there.
I love every single blog I'm reading!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Woman Starving Herself...

So I just read this article on Huffington Post: a woman is starving herself to bring media attention to the fact that her home is being foreclosed.
Shall we join her? Haha :P

Here's the link to article/video:

So yah.

Today I had:
- lemon cleanse detox drink
- water
- flaxseeds
- popcorn (right now; no butter of course)

...and I feel great.

Monday, November 8, 2010


Hi skinnies.....................
I missed blogging so freakinn much!! I missed you guys, I missed your support, I missed supporting you back.
For those of you who have been following me, you may remember what was "going on" with me.

Turns out I was right.
My fear was true.
Then...things happened....I was ill... and now that fear is "no more".
Not sure I can go in to's just too painful.

I hid from life, I got fat, then I got skinny, managed to get hospitalized without my family finding fat again, and got depressed. SO much crap going on...right now I'm "ignoring" my depression, and I managed not to go and cut myself again. I'm so proud. I'm glad I can finall
y get back on track.'s pretty much gonna be impossible for me to catch up on all the amazing blogs I'm following, anyone wanna tell me something super-important or summarize their life in the comments?? Really girls, I wanna know! Tell me everything! This is about you!

I'll be fine, girls. I learned a lot.

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