I'm kinda...happy?

Add me on my new Facebook page:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001914294493&v=wall

:D

So..what is this new crazy, jolly feeling I've been sensing?

Could it actually be...happiness??

Wow, I'm so ridiculous. For some reason, I feel super happy when I don't eat.

Today I was super pumped! I only had:

- water (0 cals)

- protein water mix (30 cals)

- green tea (0 cals)

This was only until 6 PM, when I actually was feeling legitimately HUNGRY AS HECK.

So add on to that:

- rice (95 cals)

- half a slice of pepperjack cheese (40 cals)

- pretzels (60 cals)

.........yeah, I know I f**ked it up.

But oh well. It's a start.

Plus, I exercised SO much more than usual today!

In the morning when I woke up, went for a half hour walk in heeled boots, 1 hour dance class (we must have done a bajillion sit ups :P), and i'm about to do my yoga routine again now :D

How are you feeling??

XOXOXOXO, ~ Miana

Who likes to start over...:)

I

I am

I am so

I am so fat

I AM SO FAT!!!

I know it, even people around me know it. I've gained weight.

So much weight.............this evil fat is swallowing me.

MIANA Put that knife down. Put it down! And I do.

I'm starting over.

I died my hair black (my natural hair color) as it was bleached blonde before. ~FRESH START!~

And my parents are mad at me for it...I really don't give a shizz, I think they just liked my unnatural blonde hair so that they could have an "excuse" to make fun of my stupidity. Hah.

Oh gosh, it is so cold here. I wish I could go visit my fellow Ana bloggers in Australia XD

Lol

How are you starting over? Or is what you're doing working for you? Do tell!

Support>>>Me>>>Support>>>You

**UPDATE: Add me on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001914294493&v=wall ***

Reverse Thinspo Week!!!

Yay!

SO I decided to declare my own Ana festivity: this week is "REVERSE THINSPO WEEK"! Where we post picture of horribly ugly and tremendously obese individuals to shock us back to our journey to beauty. Haha

Anyone joining me?? :D

Send me your links!

Here you go........

P.S.: Just so you don't think I'm a horrible person, I really am not THAT big a fan of being this mean. I just like admitting the truth. And the truth is, these people are unattractive and they make me want to be skinny even more. I know I'm Ana. I know I'm Mia. I love being it though, it truly makes me incredibly happy.

Enough cheesy moment! Back to reality :D Have a great R.T.W. !!

"Don't Be an Almos..."

I saw this quote in a certain building yesterday. Notice the "t" in "almost" is missing, if you haven't yet.

I freaking love it.

It's funny how I can find "normal people" quotes and apply them to my own problems... ;P

So, part of my plan to get back on track today is to start the full Lemon Cleanse again, but I'm so serious about it now.

- I've been listening only to strong powerful music :)

- This quote keeps repeating itself over and over again in my head every time I think about food

- I wanna be beautiful for my bf again

- I am doing this for a spiritual purpose, or at least pretending to. Yeah, I don't really know what that means either. LOL

...point is, THIS TIME IT'S FOR REAL!

*** Also, there's a huge charity event going on in my city, and I promised myself I would donate $1 for every kilogram lost of weight that I gained back recently, $2 for each kilogram of extra weight!! :D obviously as you can tell this charity, as everything else, means a lot to me.

Today I'm also gonna go buy some laxies again :)

And haha I bought myself a cool new colorful water bottle to keep myself ultra-hydrated all the time! Yay.

What do my lovelies think?? (that's you... ;] )

xoxoxoox

P.S.: Isla Lynn is awesome, just thought I'd put it out there.

I love every single blog I'm reading!

Woman Starving Herself...

So I just read this article on Huffington Post: a woman is starving herself to bring media attention to the fact that her home is being foreclosed.

Shall we join her? Haha :P

Here's the link to article/video:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/11/09/foreclosure-hunger-strike-baltimore-_n_781076.html

So yah.

Today I had:

- lemon cleanse detox drink

- water

- flaxseeds

- popcorn (right now; no butter of course)

...and I feel great.

I'M BAAAAACCKKKKKK!!

Hi skinnies.....................

I missed blogging so freakinn much!! I missed you guys, I missed your support, I missed supporting you back.

For those of you who have been following me, you may remember what was "going on" with me.

Turns out I was right.

My fear was true.

Then...things happened....I was ill... and now that fear is "no more".

Not sure I can go in to detail...it's just too painful.

I hid from life, I got fat, then I got skinny, managed to get hospitalized without my family finding out...got fat again, and got depressed. SO much crap going on...right now I'm "ignoring" my depression, and I managed not to go and cut myself again. I'm so proud. I'm glad I can finall

y get back on track.

So....it's pretty much gonna be impossible for me to catch up on all the amazing blogs I'm following, anyone wanna tell me something super-important or summarize their life in the comments?? Really girls, I wanna know! Tell me everything! This is about you!

I'll be fine, girls. I learned a lot.

I LOVE YOU ALL.