Random thoughts, music, and today -

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4mbdOYT2gw

The above link is to Jamie Cullum's song called "It Ain't Necessarily So."

It's nice, check it out.




Anyhoops, 

I totally failed in restraining myself today, so I am sitting awake late at night in apathy! Hoopdy woopty!

Tomorrow, I literally feel like I'm gonna eat NOTHING. I'll let you know how that goes...
(I'll probably have a sugar free Red Bull.)

Man I crave a fucken cigarette.

Ya know, lately there has been some really good thinspo being uploaded to YouTube. I felt really inspired myself, at least! I felt disgusting enough to want to be beautiful again, but not to the point where I'd want to harm again, like I did in past years (check out earlier posts...) - I am never cutting again! I just wanna be beautiful. No more. 
And so thin that you won't see me when I turn sideways ;)

I think I've been misunderstood
Not all my choices have been good
In the fading light
- Jamie Cullum, "Save Your Soul" (another song by him to check out if you like him.)

Peace!

Stay strong!

Love,

Miana

To Anyone and Everyone: Hello Again!

Wow.

Like, two years later.

I don't know why I went off the radar for so long.

Here I am. Hello friends!
I read this really fantastic email from a girl named Courtney today. She wrote it almost a year ago, telling me how she found my blog, and saying I should come back to it.
She's right.

I don't know why I was "gone" for so long. I guess some times you just need a break from everything.

Well, here I am. I'm back. I'm fat - at least, I think, and I need to get my life back in check. I start anew today!
I wonder if the same people as two years ago still exist?
If you do, and you still remember me, please write me! Comment! Anything! I've missed you. And I'm late to the Thigh Gap party. Fashionably late.

Best,

Miana