It's pretty early in the morning for me right now.
I have this habit of waking up at 4 am every day just so I can wake up and take my time doing everything and getting ready.
I wish I could say that I've been pretty good so far, but I only feel that way mentally because I've been punishing myself lately...
Basically, because of school contests, friends' pressure, et cetera, I was forced to eat some junk food, which I really hate, 'cause even when I ate "normally" (aka "like a fatty") I never really ate anything such as doughnuts, krapfens,...
So every day when I got home I did the toughest and longest exercise routine I've ever gotten used to doing! And I just kept fasting until the next day. For these two reasons, my abs an sides are really sore, and my organs are screaming for foods that consist of something other than coffee, water, some yogurt, and the occasional junk that my peers may as well force-feed me with.
So, all of this has been taking somewhat of a toll on my grades...oh well. It's okay with me, because I finally decided what I want to be in the future (career-wise), and I think I'll be fine!
I haven't really weighed myself lately...perhaps I'm too scared.
Speaking of which, you know the two ana-mia bracelets I had just made for myself? Lol, I lost them for like a day and a half... :P then my mum found them where I left them accidentally...near the scale!! Lol, fortunately she has no clue as to what they mean.
But she is getting sort of suspicious, especially because now I weigh less than her for the first time in a long while, and she's an inch schorter than I am (I'm 5'4"...the tallest girl in my family!).
I'm not too worried about her suspicions, especially because I don't get to see her much (we're both Uber-busy) and when I do, she's usually working on her laptop or doing crafts, and she likes the silence.
To me, it's a deafening silence...but it's also my safe zone with her.
So yah, I kinda need support right now...not as much as a couple weeks ago or so when I was on a binge tangent, but I'm still kind of gloomy :/
I love you all skinnies!!