Friday, September 24, 2010



Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And
you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I



...I just thought I woul share these Green Day lyrics with you.
I watched a couple of my friends perform this song today, plus it was already one of my favorites, and they were so good!
I know a song means something when it stays stuck in my head for hours!!

So...I had a really good diet day a couple days ago as I said in my last post...but after that I went and screwed it all up. I'm not sure why...preobably because of hormonal change, plus I got really scared back in the mentioned-above day, when I felt fainting more or less throughout the whole day, and almost collapsed. I took it too far. Other than eating only 120 calories (which I am not used to), I also exercised hardcore for a couple hours. I need to take it more slowly.
But anyway, after that day I started bingeing on unhealthy things for a day and a half.
Yuck. Especially imported chocolate that my dear mum found....
I am so disappointed.
I need an Ana friend near me to slap me in the face every once in a while!!
I need to make Ana's voice herself be enough...

Positive side: I think I'm over that mini-phase now. I don't feel the binge need any longer, plus I looked at some thinspo and it realy changed my mindset. Also, all this running from place to place as well as "normal" portion eating really revved up my metabolism :D :D :D

I am ready for a fresh, easy, long-term start!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxo my skinnies!!

PS: If you guys find any new links to (SAFE) thinspo, please share! Love you!!

9 comments:

  1. I love the song as well. You seem to have great taste in music from what I see so far!

    Ah, I'm so sorry about the bad days. And you're always going to feel the "need" or "want" to binge every once and a while. The trick is saying no to it. Remember who you are. Don't get tricked up in the moment.

    Keep going Miana! You're a princess, a rare beauty, now embrace it!

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  2. P.S. Thinking of you tomorrow as I kick my ass into shape! :) Good idea. And oh my dear, I am so sorry about your man, Miana. Is he in the service? Or just traveling? Either which way I pray traveling mercies over him and safety! You're such a strong girl.

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  3. I found a really good blogger who does stricly thinspo.. unfortunately I cant remember what its called. I am following her though so it will be in my list of followed blogs.


    Way to inspire everyone with those lyrics! I'm proud you've gotten back into your mindset. As long as binges dont go on too long they almost are a positive because of a small metabolism boost.

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  4. Well done gorgeous! You sound like you're getting back on track :) xxxxxxxxxxx

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  5. Thanks girls:)
    Btw, my guy is just living in my home country, which is where i met him.
    won't be near him for possibly a whole year!..
    but we are both students so time will pass.
    hopefully.

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  6. There has to be little bumps on your way to skinny, but you'll get through them :)
    Plus, I love that song!! Green day is one of my favorite bands as it is. <3333

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  7. I love GD so much. Though i liked them better when they were more punk and less popular :P
    ANyway thanks so much to all!
    I feel so weak right now but I know I can be strong!!
    I just gotta believe...
    xoxo

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  8. Thanks for the lyrics! They really hit home, you know? And thanks so much for commenting! I love reading new blogs and commenting :) If you'd like, I can post a link to your blog in my next entry!

    I'm glad you are past the binge-y feeling. I hate the binge-y feeling. Losing control sucks.

    Stay strong! xoxo

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  9. I love green day!! of course I got to know them and love them with the "American Idiot" but 21 Guns is a strong song, too!!

    Thanks for all the comments and support, I'm following you too now, so we will get to know each other better!! I'm so glad!!

    have a nice day (well here is past midnight but oh,well..)
    xoxo

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